my patients

im a nurse and ask to continue to serve christ in the sickbed. i am having numeous attacks on my charater while providing excellent care that god gets 100% credit. i have no references. no friends. no job opportunities. i am heart broken. I am a mother of a sick child and a wife. i need direction to sow a seed at home caring for my faimly or care for another sick person. . I desire peace and wisdom. it has harmed my health. i know mother teresa had moments of doubt and pain. it really is very bad. i care for the most severly ill children with special needs and am a mother of one. I cry all the time for an answer or direction. to serve another? to serve only my family? please keep me in your prayers.