Slow Burning Candle burning

BA

I’m requesting prayer for my self . I been sober going on 3 years.
But I know I have a gambling problem. Idk I’m tired of fighting with family wanting my money. Jelous and angry at me idk why ? I struggle to keep a roof over my head and food on table , health issues with intestines, kidney. My sister man being stocker , she doesn’t believe it . Have an auntie causing all kinds slander against me . In court I am not the killer . I’m very tired of fighting a battle I don’t even know of or why. Trying live life. Want meet someone now tired being alone . Never see my son or grandson, or any siblings or family
911 help me please thoughts of suicide is in my mind once again